17 year old thoughts

Dear God, I have sinned.

I have not gone to church.

I have stopped.

I have smoked.

I have smoked and sold marijuana.

I have fought.

I have had evil thoughts about committing murder.

I have not obeyed my mother even though she is the only one who loves me no matter my flaws.

I have thought about murder but have not gone through with it. I am so scared to go to hell.

I don’t want to go to hell.

I have jumped innocent people for no reason.

I have been a materialistic person.

I have lied.

I have not done well in school.

I want to get saved on Sunday.

I am scared that i will do wrong after getting saved.

I love you lord.