I really could go to church today, I have finals this week, and a mountain of essays to complete. I am already under stress and walking to the church right now would not be conducive to my workload. I know this is just a mound of excuses, but I do feel badly about it and want to confess. This week, clearly I have not kept holy the Sabbath, which I feel so bad about because I know I can go, I am just lazy, and not getting my work efficiently. Also, sometimes I talk about people behind their backs. I feel awful about this too. Since I have started to go to school in Canada I feel I have disconnected from God, and been able to ask for things, or help, or forgiveness. It is I don?t feel right asking for stupid things, the ability to open up and be okay with the way things are at school, or how I am. I am sorry I have let this happen, and I hope soon I can find your presence again. A lot of the time, I just feel I am not being true to me. I know I am a better person than how I have acted, and that I am more confident than how it may seem I react to things, but I cannot find it in me to change. Please forgive me Lord, I am sorry.