I?m a male and i think i am gay i to see gay p. I am a teenager 15 years old i fight with my brothers and my mom. My mom and dad are separated me and my dad we use to fight olot with him i hate him and he hates me. Sometimes i had duty thinking me my brothers and mom dad have s. But when they got separeted i suddently stop thinking that. When I was on Mexico I remember I saw the virgin gadalupe with other eyes a woman sometimes I think I imagine her naked but now I do not imagine that. I stop beliving in god but now I believe in him yesterday me and my brother had a fight I took my rosary off so we can fight when we stop fighting I look for my rosary and it was shatered some invisible force have broket and that was impossible to happen because it?s made of little interlocking chains and the beads are made of lapis -lazuly then I fix it with a tool I got scared and I put it away sometimes I imagine Jesus naked and sex but now stop thinking that. When I was 3 years old I got trick by a cousin he told me an my bother 2 years old if we wanted berries we have to have sex with him my cousin was 4 years old back then an we have sex we do not know it was bad and he did not give as any berries he told us to don?t tell any one then me and my brother went home there was no one home and went to the bathroom and have sex me and my brother . I feel so but about my self now and forever.