You are a wonderful lady that loves Jesus. I know you have done the best you can do thru all the years of life that have passed. It is good that you kept a pure heart, don?t ever lose it. Keep going just as you are sweet and nice. Its Ok to dissappoint others and be honest with them. You are very capable of running your own life. Please know it is ok and you don?t need to blame yourself anymore. Love you.