My brothers for not truly understanding what happened while mom was dying and after too- my husband for his illness, and harsh words for the kids. myself for being human, trying my hardest. tami for being an awful person b4 and after my mom died. life for sucking big time. my mom for dieing. god for this, if it doesn?t help ;0 just kidding god- i figure you hear- and just make me string my soul out for some lesson or other.