I’m so sorry I can’t forgive myself

I’ve told you only in letter form and in passing while you were yelling. I can’t forgive myself and I never will. Every day is a struggle without you.

I am so sorry. I get sick to my stomach just thinking about this situation. I love you and hope, wish, pray for you and to have you back. Nothing will be half as good. A big part of me died, it been hard.

I’ve had bad thoughts and time is not healing anything. I’ll never forgive myself, I don’t expect you to and understand.

I love you and want the best for you, I want to make that happen but I’ve done this to myself. You’re perfect, I love you