Im so sorry for what I did I never meant to hurt you, I love you more than anything in the world. You are my everything, I risked so much for you and I made the mistake of risking you. I have a drinking problem and I have for years I want to stop. I want to do better for myself, I want to be your everything. I wanna spend forever with you. When you arent there for me to talk to I feel an emptyness, I have a hole in my heart that feels 10 miles wide. You make me happier than I?ve ever been, and I know its true love, It could never be better than it was when we were together, it was ecstacy we are perfect together. You know if I were in my concious mind I would never do that to you and because of that I am going to take a huge step and quit drinking thats something that even rehab could never get me to do. I?m going crazy without you! I love you. I can?t be without you. I?m asking for forgiiveness, i want to be there for you through anything, and I want you to be there for me. I know I messed up I wish I could take it back, we both know that can?t be done but I forgave you, PLEASE do the same. I love you til death.