I wan to find love and I go about doing so the wrong way.

I meet good men but i get emotionally attached quick.

I recently was seeing someone and things were going bad so to get his attention i told him i was pregnant then later said I lost the baby.

I feel so bad for saying these things.

I just want to find true love and make it last.

But I should not have to go about doing so with lies that hurt people.

I have been sick to my stomach over what I have done.

I just hope that he can find happiness with whoever he decides to be with.

I never meant for things to turn out this way.

He was treating me horribly but i would try to show him that i cared about him.

But I should have just walked away.

I don’t know why I feel the need to have a mans attention.

I just want to find love but i know that it will come when the time is right.

I hope that I can be forgiven.