Ashamed
I want to find love, and I go about doing so the wrong way.
I meet good men, but I get emotionally attached quickly.
I recently was seeing someone and things were going bad so to get his attention i told him i was pregnant then later said I lost the baby.
I feel so bad for saying these things.
I just want to find true love and make it last.
But I should not have to go about doing so with lies that hurt people.
I have been sick to my stomach over what I have done.
I just hope that he can find happiness with whoever he decides to be with.
I never meant for things to turn out this way.
He was treating me horribly, but I would try to show him that I cared about him.
But I should have just walked away.
I don’t know why I feel the need to have a mans attention.
I just want to find love but i know that it will come when the time is right.
I hope that I can be forgiven.
