At 36, I was a friend and mentor to a 19 year old man, and loved him as a brother, but also secretly struggled with emotional intimacy/sexual desires for him.
Then, the day after his girlfriend dumped him when he was exhausted from little sleep and emotionally looking to me for support, I led him into a homosexual experience with me.
When he needed me to be there for him, I was weak and selfish and abused him and myself.