I wish we could have a hug-o-war.

This is anonymous so it’s safe.

You’ll probably never read this.

But dear Matthew I truly am sorry.

I am sorry that I could not follow through last spring.

I regret not meeting you so much.

I can’t be a good friend to you if every time we talk I am sitting here sobbing.

That’s not your fault darling, it’s mine.

I am so sorry I ruined things and am even more sorry that I cannot get over it.

Believe me, I know how crazy it sounds to have fallen in love with someone you’ve never even laid eyes on but it happened and it tears me up inside to know that you don’t feel this way and will never change your mind.

You deserve someone so much better than me. I am too weak and needy and manipulative.

I am sorry but I cannot and will not spend one more night sitting on a computer crying. You’ll always be the one that got away, and if it’s any consolation in the end I inflicted more pain upon myself than I ly did on you.

I just hope that someday you can try to understand this and maybe find it in your heart not to hate me.

I’ve never been in love before and just can’t shake it off.