im sorry

this has been happening for about 2 years now ive cheated on my boyfriend so many times,he knows of some and still loves me but i keep doing it i don’t know whats wrong with me, i love him so much but i cannot tell him.

i am so young still and messed up my life so bad and i cannot deal with it anymore.

my boyfriend has cheated on me 2 times.

ive even thought about suicide.