Looks like I am not the only one who struggles with these

I would like to change my life, for myself and for God.

As a forever single person, I struggle with personal immortality. Lately, I have picked up a habit, I hate this it darkens my spirit and damages my other strengths.

I am a believer, a church goer, etc.

But I am lately very eak in this area. It is making me feel insensitive and unfeeling in other areas of my life. I need to repent.

I need real fortitude for which I am sadly lacking. God save a lonely old sinner. Forgive me as I forgive others.