Lost within myself

Dear God,
I am lost within myself. I feel abandoned 💔. I am with a man that still stirring mixed signals with me and not trying to get a divorce.I
need help my heart is hurting. I want to become a better person. I just do not know how. I am confused,lost and afraid. People at my job hate me ,and I am not perfect but I am trying. I love my son Micah. I want him to grow up and be a great young man. I couldn’t give him everything. I tried to give him the necessary tools. I want him to be extremely blessed.

I want a better employment, job, and a new career path. Bills keep getting higher and higher. Food price are high.