Dear Margaret, Please forgive me for the pain and hurt I’ve caused, you, caitlin and marni don’t deserve to be going through this. I have been so tied up in my own feelings that I’d forgot about everyone else.

I’m sorry, I’ve caused so much pain and hurt to everyone, you were my beautiful wife and i don’t know if ill ever be able to forgive myself for what I’ve done to you all.

I was controlling, immature, I needed help a long time ago but I thought I could cope but couldn’t really.

Please forgive me, i am going to get all the help i need to ensure this never happens again.

love alan x