4 years ago, I had found my brother Chris and Since then, I have treated his family shit.
I called his family white trash.
I said his wife was a dog that got spaded.
I even laughed when someone called him a chil molester.
I have pushed him out of my life because a part of me was afraid to be loved by him.
I was afraid to let love in because I was scared he would turn out to be everyone else.
The relationship we have had in the last four years is not the type of relationship I wanted with him.
What I mean is I didn’t want to treat his shit.
Also, there have been lies I have told about cancer and being diabetic.
Just to see if he cared.
I tried to buy expensive gifts to ensure he would stay in my life.
I was so afraid he would leave.
I know sounds confusing one minute, I wanted him out of my life, and the next minute I didn’t want to lose him.
I was confused and didn’t know what I wanted.
With certain events that has happened in the last couple of months, I am able to change and be the person he needs me to be if only he would forgive me and try to let the past go and try fresh.
So I am asking him for his forgiveness.
I was a terrible sister, and for that I am sorry.
Please find it in your heart to forgive me.