I was married to my husband for 15 years, but we were together for 4 years prior.

We are divorcing because of many reasons.

But there is one factor I find myself in the deepest turmoil over.

I had an affair with my husband’s brother-in-law.

No excuse for it.

No intent to hurt everyone that it has.

Especially the children.

My conflict is that we truly love one another.

I cannot give him up. I know I should.

It’s beyond casual.

I know I am wrong, but my heart has overpowered my mind.

I am truly sorry for the pain and anguish that has befal the entire family.

I don’t want to be punished for loving the person I belong with.

But I do know I’ve broken the sanctity of my marriage.

I am confused, conflicted, depressed, and inexplicably in dire need of direction.

I am ashamed that I’ve given up, yet I cannot bring myself to continue hurting the man I vowed to spend the rest of my life with.

I believe I should let him go.

I ask my Lord for forgiveness, and lead me back to the faith I know I have.

I just don’t know what to do.