For all my married life I have borne rencour against my husband.
Firstly, because I was always the last on his list, and secondly for bearing his insults and bad temper.
He has always refused to go to marriage guidance because (I am the one with the problem, not him) and thirdly, in spite of my various illnesses, he has never done anything to please me or help me feel better.
Since he only wanted me for sex I felt used and now for the last two years, we have slept in separate beds.
At 66, I think it is too late to change things, but I often feel resentful about my wasted life.
I am a non-practicing catholic.