Dear God,
I am asking for forgiveness for not loving just one person, but three.
This past November, I was intimately involved with three different people, and two of those relationships were on a semi-regular, weekly basis.
None of them know that I haven’t been exclusive, and I’ve been justifying my actions by telling myself that since we aren’t officially committed, what they don’t know can’t hurt them. But the truth is, it’s hurting me deeply.
I long for a love that is intimate, exclusive, and committed, but I realize I cannot have what I’m not willing or able to give. In this, I’m not only hurting them but also causing pain to myself.
Please help me find the strength to be honest, to love with integrity, and to become the kind of person capable of building a real, faithful relationship.
Amen.