It hurts, but…
Dear God,
It’s been three years since I moved here three years spent with someone I’m about to hurt deeply. I hate myself for it, but the truth is, we aren’t compatible.
We hardly talk, and we don’t share any common interests. Despite my efforts to connect, she shows little real interest in me. Yet, she loves me and takes care of me, and that makes this even harder.
But there’s someone else a long-time friend I’ve grown closer to.
Come this spring, I know I’ll leave. One day I’ll be here, and the next, I simply won’t.
I know it will break her heart. I don’t want to cause her pain. Hurting her brings me no comfort, but I can’t continue living in a relationship that feels empty and false. I just can’t.
God, please forgive me. Please watch over the person I’m about to leave behind, this wounded soul I care about but can no longer be with.
I don’t know how else to bring this to an end. I never had a good example of how to handle situations like this, but I usually know the difference between right and wrong. Now, those lines feel so blurred.
No matter what I choose, someone will be hurt. But this time, I feel like I have to choose for myself.
Please guide me through this, Lord.
Amen.
