Dear God, I am so lost for words…
my heart aches, I want to die most of the time.
tonight the thoughts came again.
i could take all those pills and just never wake up, but what if the girls find me dead in the morning, i have screwed them up enough.
thanks for Doug he brought feelings back in me I thought were dead since my husband died.
i don’t think he can give me what i need right now.
I need someone to hold me and make me feel safe, I am so tired of doing this alone…
please do something, please help me find the strength to make it inside one more day…..
please help me, please help me,, Lost