help me, please help me,, Lost

Dear God, I am so lost for words…

my heart aches, I want to die most of the time.

tonight the thoughts came again.

i could take all those pills and just never wake up, but what if the girls find me dead in the morning, i have screwed them up enough.

thanks for Doug he brought feelings back in me I thought were dead since my husband died.

i don’t think he can give me what i need right now.

I need someone to hold me and make me feel safe, I am so tired of doing this alone…

please do something, please help me find the strength to make it inside one more day…..

please help me, please help me,, Lost