Dear God, I am feeling extremely lost. I feel deeply inconsiderate and I know I have been.

It disgusts me. I feel so guilty about it and so angry about my poor decisions.

It’s sitting in the pit of my stomach.

I am remorseful and seek clarity. I don’t like feeling this way. I don’t know what to do.

I want to support my family but I don’t know how. I have no skills and have squandered any talent I have.

My personality used to be so great and now I am an empty void. I push everyone away and I don’t like it, it’s the opposite of how I want to be. I need deep healing and I just am very sorry for how inconsiderate I have been. I feel like a fraud. Please help.

Help me to gain courage and not be a coward and genuinely care for others. Help me to release this anger. Help me to be a better friend. Help me to be somebody you can someday be proud of.

Someone that I can be proud of, although I don’t know if I would ever be able to feel such a way again. I am so undeserving of any blessings and do not desire any, I just hope I can be a blessing for others and to practice kindness in every area of my life.

Help me to be emotionally vulnerable and honest. Help me to be more intellectually sound, rational, grounded, resilient. Please, please forgive me and help me to be closer to your will, whatever it may be.

Thank you for helping me in the past, I am sorry for disappointing you and taking my blessings for granted… I am deeply disappointed in myself as well.