I want to be happy

Dear God,

I come to You with a heavy heart, longing for peace and freedom.
I know You hate divorce but I also know You love me.
And right now, I need to feel that love more than ever.

I am tired of living in sorrow, constantly compared to someone else.
I am not the one who broke our vows, yet I carry the blame.
I am tired of the guilt, the tears, and the silence that follows every argument.
I have tried, again and again, to make it work but I am exhausted.

I am ready to start over.
To live a life that doesn’t drain me by the end of each day.
I am tired of hiding behind a smile, pretending he’s something he’s not.
He chose to leave his responsibilities, while I carry the weight of this home alone.

And still, somehow, I am the problem.

Lord, I am asking for Your help.
Help me raise my daughters with love, wisdom, and stability.
Bless me with good health, a long life, and the means to meet every need.
If I must walk away from this house, please walk beside me.

Give me the strength to let go.
The courage to begin again.
The bravery to protect my peace.

And God, please keep him from blocking the path You are clearing for me.

Amen.