for some answers and hope.

I thought this would be easy, but for some reason, I can’t even write the first sentence.

I can’t say I have been the most devoted follower, and to be honest…

the question haunts me…

of you and faith in general.

But I’m not writing this letter for proof or to ask of anything in that case, I am just writing this letter to give myself piece of mind, I guess? I feel as though my life is a whirlwind, and as I try to follow each step by the book, it just pushes me further and further away.

There are SO many distractions in this life, and I’ve found that believing is harder than not believing.

I’ve graduated college, I have a good job, I met the best man alive…

but I’m still not sure why my heart feels so heavy…

I have a troubled feeling that overwhelms me, almost as though I am all alone in this life and after..

it’s a sad feeling.

All though…

I have everything a person would want, at least through my eyes, and am still so thankful for it.

so much to say, and I’m sure you’ve heard it all…

so I guess I want you yo know that you’ve filled my thoughts lately, and i guess I’m just looking for some answers and hope.