Lord, please forgive me for not attending church for almost 6 months.

I have been feeling so lost and depressed and lonely and need to feel you near to me.

I have been disillusioned with life due to an abusive childhood and the resultant terribly abusive relationships because of this.

Sometimes I don’t understand why I go through this time after time after time, it doesn’t make sense.

How is this pattern glorifying you? I try to break out of it with prayer, therapy, medicine, and friends, and You are my only hope now.

I feel that I have no control over this, as it is so deeply ingrained in me since I was tiny…

Please forgive me for not attending.

There are mornings that turn into afternoons because I cannot bring myself out of bed because of this depression.

I need your friendship and healing in my life now more than ever.

Please help me Father!