Please open your arms to me

My emotional fog clouds everything and it ends up making me drink and then more issues arise the next day. I think I just want to make the pain quit building after a while because I apparently have no way to release these feelings. Counseling is my option as well as continuing my relationship with you.

Please forgive me for drinking, stealing, and whatever else I did last night that is sinning against you. I love you very much, but sometimes I get in the way of myself. I don’t want to live a life where I am afraid to live for you. I want to hope, I want my mom, I want this thirst for love to end or begin with someone else. Please forgive me.