forgive myself. Please. Amen.
Dear God, I am a sinner.
You know this as well as I.
You know my multitude of sins and also know that despite knowing you have forgiven me for everything I have done, I often fail to forgive myself and thus, turn my nose up at what you and your Son have done for me.
I don’t mean to do that.
I’m sorry. I’m struggling, God. I try really hard to keep things together, but I fear I am weak.
You know how easily I slip and want desperately to end things completely.
You also know I wouldn’t do that, but I often entertain the idea.
I don’t really want to be dead. I just want the pain inside of me to go away.
For good.
I feel I ask you to take my worries, my fears, my mistakes, and of course, my sins, and for a brief time, you do.
And there is peace.
Then, inevitably, I insist on reclaiming all of the above and sit in sice and cry and torment myself.
I need your help today, tomorrow, and ever day after that, God. Please don?t give up on me.
I need you to come to me, and forgive me for what I did as a child… as a teenager… as an adult.
And show me how to forgive myself.
Please.
Amen.
