My “best friend”

I know I’m only 15, maybe I’m wrong about the man in my life. Maybe this boy isn’t right for me. I need your help.
My prayer is certainly not as important as those who ask for life, health, peace. But please listen to me, and treat this prayer with all your love.

I met him almost 3 years ago, and for a year and a half, we were the best friends in the world, he had a few girlfriends, who were jealous of me, deep down, I was too, but I I didn’t realize it.
Besides, forgive me for having felt jealousy, and for still feeling a little today.

Then he had this girlfriend, his real first love, I got along well with her, and I thought she liked me. It turned out not.
It was a little later that my friends turned against me, but, indeed, I was not a good person, I was toxic.
For 8 months, we no longer spoke to each other, we were no longer part of each other’s lives.

That’s when I questioned myself and changed for the better.

I contacted him again, 8 months after the end of our friendship, just to give each other some news, which he took with open arms. We only spoke for an hour, then we lost touch again.

His girlfriend, learning that he had spoken to me, decides to leave him, after a year of relationship. It was a shock for him, 9 months later he still hasn’t forgotten her.

We contacted each other again 2 months ago, since then our friendship has resumed its course, even if we are just friends and not best friends.

A few days ago, I noticed that I have been attracted to him for a long time, but I can’t describe it. He’s funny, smart, interesting.
But obviously he doesn’t love me, a few hours ago I learned that he found another girl, even if he hasn’t forgotten the other one.

But Lord, I cried, you know that.

I need You, is it just lust or really love I have for him? Are we meant to be together? I know he’s a Christian, but does he really have You in his heart?

I prayed THIS prayer, asking You to remove him from my heart if it wasn’t the right one. It was 1 week ago, and I still have feelings for him.

Lord, I need You.

If he’s not for me, please, make me happy even if I don’t have him, even if I am lonely, even if I don’t talk to him like we did. Please, God, help your daughter.
Thanks You for all, I love You, Father.
I pray in the name of the Lord Jesus.