I need to get married, stop gambling and get rich.

But God Why? I was very fine. I had given up on man, I gave had given up on the serious relationship , I had given up on love and happiness, I told him what I went through in life and how hate I was.

But still, God sent me him to me, to confuse me and he made false promises and he made sure I fall in love. I was very fine with my life, I was happy and glowing with the little love I had then he came and promised the world, he played with my feelings and I fall for him again I was trapped.

Just so that I love again and trust again.

Then hope started to grow I loved again and I trusted again. I gave him my whole because I thought the foundation was so strong and that God sent me the right man at last. I build my trust, love, and hope on him to my family and friends warned ⚠️ not to, I remember Mamie telling me that I should not take him seriously, how can I take someone serious after all that I have been through, look at how happy some of them are relationships come and go, the play around and the are happy.

Men just play around with ladies’ feelings. But he promised me that would never happen but to my surprise, it turned out just as they said it would. He turned out to be what he promised he would never be. I am the stupid one after all, after so many years of never failing in love I was lied to again. He pretended to be the perfect man while he knew he would destroy me, he had evil plans and bad intentions 💔 which he covered just to be uncovered now.

But I was so stupid not to see all the signs now am broken, sad 😢 and am being laughed at but so many.

I don’t know what to do or what say, I surely deserve this, after all, you were to good to be true, maybe what the say is true everything which looks good and sweet on the outside ends up to be very poisonous. I can’t even find it in my heart to bring him down in the eyes of my family and friends because to them he was the perfect man the all prayed for a man like because I had painted him that way in their eyes, now when I hear people talking about how perfect we were my heart aches to think of all I have been through, we thought he loved me unconditionally.

Now to go back to them and tell them I was taken for a fool again is the most difficult thing to do, to the point that it would be better if good just took me to go rest than to be here suffering, currently am a mess, after I thought I had someone who could fight all storms with me but just one storm and everything the said became true.

The told me once work is done, he will change, and he has changed, now am being told am who I am, the said man like him are just like that, relax and work on themselves, and don’t get pregnant. He will change. My reply was always the same I love him and will go through everything with him because what I feel for him I have never feltl for anyone else, get to know him. He is a VERY GOOD MAN.

I never knew the choice I made again would be the end of me and my whole life.. why didn’t you just tell me in the first place that this is who you are? Whenever you get to a different town, everything else ends and new things start, I could have just stayed the way I was now this is the end of me. I told him am sensitive and not emotionally strong but still because he knew I love you, he just walked all over me. Now I will never be the same again. But why did God bring him on my pass just for him to destroy me, is he not seeing what is happening to me and what will happen? What did I ever do to him for him to do this to me? Why did he do all this if he knew he would never take me seriously? Why all the pretence? God should go through this again and see me through for once.

This is a letter to God from Mizeko..

it’s time God comes in my life and takes the front seat.*