can you please make sure i will get good results tomorrow?
dearest God,
I am sick. I am numb in my mind, heart and stomach. i cannot think properly and neither can i make myself to forget the past and move on.
How can I when I know very well that the worst results of my life are looming around the corners and in about 10 hours I will be handed with results that really will be the worst ever. It means that i won’t get to go abroad in scholarship. I might even tell you that my life will end! God I can feel all of me dying, every cells in my body is scared, i have never felt this scared god. I have never. I love you god and you have helped me through everything in life till now but from tomorrow onwards, I will be nothing due to the results, My whole body is boiling with fright at just the mere thought of it. I feel weak.
Please god, i want you to help me out of it in any way possible.
Please help me get good results. I tried what i could and it seems like i won’t be.
Sweet god, you are always caring and i might absolutely get feral and mad and insane if i fail or get bad grades. God, i need love and it seems like that is not possible at the moment.
Please, god help me please, god help me. I cannot stress how much i need you in my life. I really cannot god.
How on earth will i ever show my face to the world? God, please love me, care for me, and yes help me!
