I wish I could say this aloud to everyone who knows of it.
I’ve been keeping this a secret from so many people, who all have felt sorry for me for an imaginary event.
I was never raped.
I was never even touched by him in ever in my entire life.
I met him only a few times.
I just said it when everyone was saying it.
It was terrifying and shocking to know that everyone in our group stated that day had been raped or molested or sexually abused sometime in their life.
I didn’t know what to say.
I panicked and spurted out a string of lies.
Soon, that string of lies grew and grew as it began to spread from the group to other people.
Soon I couldn’t keep it under control so i buried it with even more lies. I so wish i had the courage to say this to all of you.
I don’t deserve your forgiveness, sympathy, or any sad feeling toward me.
But at least I got this off my chest, and maybe I will someday be able to tell each and every one of you so you no longer have to live feeling bad for me.
I’m so, so,so very sorry…
