I apologize my wife

Sorry, my wife …
I’m sorry I’m angry, sorry I’m frustrated, sorry I’m not taking my hands and dealing with life, sorry I choose to blame you I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry I’m stubborn, sorry a million times for all the things I do not have how to describe in words, sorry,
I hope God will forgive me and help me to be better, more efficient, more loving, more supportive, stronger,
forgive me a pure soul that I am so fucked I no longer have the strength

How can you forgive a person who has hurt you