I cannot go to church today….
I could go to church today, I have finals this week and a mountain of essays to complete.
I am already under stress, and walking to the church right now would not be conducive to my workload.
I know this is just a mound of excuses, but I do feel bad about it and want to confess.
This week, clearly, I have not kept holy the Sabbath, which I feel so bad about because I know I can go, I am just lazy, and not getting my work done efficiently.
Also, sometimes I talk about people behind their backs.
I feel awful about this too.
Since I have started to go to school in Canada, I feel I have disconnected from God, and been able to ask for things, or help, or forgiveness.
It is I don’t feel right asking for stupid things, the ability to open up and be okay with the way things are at school or how I am.
I am sorry I have let this happen, and I hope soon I can find your presence again. A lot of the time, I just feel I am not being true to myself.
I know I am a better person than how I have acted and that I am more confident than how it may seem I react to things, but I cannot find it in me to change.
Please forgive me, Lord, I am sorry.
