I cannot go to church today….

I could go to church today, I have finals this week and a mountain of essays to complete.

I am already under stress, and walking to the church right now would not be conducive to my workload.

I know this is just a mound of excuses, but I do feel bad about it and want to confess.

This week, clearly, I have not kept holy the Sabbath, which I feel so bad about because I know I can go, I am just lazy, and not getting my work done efficiently.

Also, sometimes I talk about people behind their backs.

I feel awful about this too.

Since I have started to go to school in Canada, I feel I have disconnected from God, and been able to ask for things, or help, or forgiveness.

It is I don’t feel right asking for stupid things, the ability to open up and be okay with the way things are at school or how I am.

I am sorry I have let this happen, and I hope soon I can find your presence again. A lot of the time, I just feel I am not being true to myself.

I know I am a better person than how I have acted and that I am more confident than how it may seem I react to things, but I cannot find it in me to change.

Please forgive me, Lord, I am sorry.

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