I can’t take this anymore

God,

This is too much. I cannot take this constant rejection from jobs, this lack of income, this lack of my own home, lack of lust for life, lack of happiness.

I’ve done everything I’ve been guided to. I’ve saved so many lives with my Twitter, I’ve helped so many people.

Although I am happy with who I am on the inside, the outside is for shit! When in the fuck will my outer world match all this work I’ve done for the inner world. Like seriously… How the fuck long could it take?!?

I don’t even know what to say other than the way things are going doesn’t work for me. I need everything to come to me easily and be beautiful the same way as it is inside me. As above, so below. I need you to change the outer now. Like right now. I really need you.

I can’t take this anymore.

Hazel

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