If You Will

I ask that you forgive me of my sins, my impatience, poor attitude currently and also for worrying. Lord, I know you are good today, yesterday and tomorrow. I know you are sovereign.

You already know why I’m reaching out today. you know where my heart is. The truth is that I’m tired. I’m on the verge of walking from righteousness into unrighteousness. I do not want to. I want you. I want to honor you. I’ve tried my whole life to honor you and live in a way that you have called us to. Today I ask for your prophetic words over myself, my future children, and Jon to come to pass. I feel as if I cannot go another day.

Your words says “it is not good for man to be a lone” and also that “it is better to marry than to burn with passion”. Lord, I’m burning. I’m trying so hard to wait on you. Where are you?! Please let me know you’re still here and listening and that I’m not waiting in vain.

Please give me encouragement, a word, a mountain moving even an inch. Father please, I beg you. I know we don’t have to but I’m desperate. I’m on my knees. My legs are like logs.

They take the greatest effort to move forward because I’m so very weary. My heart is broken and the Hope that I’m clinging to seems further away than ever. I know you’ve called me to be a wife and a mother. I believe that your Word is living and true and working. I know that Jesus is working on my behalf. I know that you don’t owe me anything Lord but I’m asking you to show me your goodness TODAY. I love you.

Thank you Father. -Amen