Things I said I’d never do…

and things I couldn’t even conceive of others doing I have now done. I am only 23 but I feel old and weary.

God help me stop numbing my pain and give me the strength to feel it and admit that I am hurt. Admit that I am broken and only you can fix me.

I have slept with more men than I can count. I abuse my sister’s trust by living in her house and lying to her about my lifestyle and my choices. I’ve gone from alcohol and pot to pills to ecstacy and meth to coke and heroin cocktails and I’m afraid I’ve gone too far now to get back.

My parents are scared for me I know. But I can’t go back there. I have failed. I was supposed to be the smart one…Where are you, God?

Why do I do these things I hate.

Please help me to cut M off. He’s just using me for pills and I’m feeding his addiction because I want to be near him. It’s sick.

Do I just love him because he’s famous? Show me what love is.

Show me how to love YOU. Please. I want to know before it/s too late.

How to Let Go: Real Stories of Forgiveness and Healing

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    Amendment

    Byforgivenet

    I need to make amends for my sins, I am endeavoring to work on and overcome all my weaknesses and shortcomings with the help of Christ and his grace. My sins are at times swearing, anger, impatience, hard-heartedness, bad attitude, some fibbing on occasion, every now and again I masterbate, and have been evil thoughts…

  • Stengthen me!

    Byforgivenet

    I would like to confess to GOD and to mankind and admit that I’m a sinner!!!… I’ve willfully sinned sins of commission (my Will) and sins of omission (should of acted but didn?t). Lately, I have sworn, taken God’s name in vain, had evil thoughts and unkind words, I’ve been short-tempered and the worst sins=I?Ve…

  • guilty

    Byforgivenet

    I am guilty of revenge, idolatry, theft, sexual sins, hard-heartedness, disobedience to GOD, Willfulness, swearing, Taking God’s name in vain, evil thoughts, adultery of the heart, lust, emotional sins, sins of omission and commission, not applying my disciplines, choosing sin over righteousness, not appreciating the savior’s atonement for me, not thinking of consequences before acting…

  • I’m sorry God

    Byforgivenet

    I tried to take back an open bottle of diet pills to Walmart so that I would have more money put back on my credit card. They wouldn’t take them and I tried to scam them but they caught me. I am so embarrassed at myself. I’m glad God let me get caught. He loves…