You, Lord. I’m sorry. Carissa
God, You know my heart. You know the dark places within it that I struggle with.
Why do I keep falling back into those places? That’s not where I want my heart to be.
I have known Your love, Your grace, Your mercy, and Your forgiveness…
So why do I keep stumbling? I KNOW what I’m doing! It’s malicious, self-serving sin, and now I’m scared for my salvation.
I contemplated suicide the other day, as You know.
Would a true child of God do that? If I had followed through on that act, where would my soul be? God, my prayer is that I will never fall out of Your grace and that I can eradicate willful sin from my life.
I’m so sorry for being disobedient! I don’t deserve the gift of eternal life.
I just wanted to say…
I’m sorry.
I love You.
Please help me remain in You, Lord.
I’m sorry.
Carissa
