God Please help me. I am broken

Dear God,
I am Chethana Perera.

You know me, god.

God, please help me. I’m broken. I need your help. I always ask you to send my life partner such that I can tell all my problems to him.

But God, I don’t know whether the person I’m in love with is the one. God, Only if I will be able to him all my problems and forget them then I will know that he is the one. God, I’m afraid to go to school.

I don’t like here. I don’t like school and sri lanka. I want to go back to Germany or Italy. We were so happy there. God, do you know I feel so uncomfortable at school those two boys are always coming near me. I hate it, God. And one boy is always telling I love you. God, do you know that the other boy is always looking at me in a disgusting way And when I turn around, he looks away.

God, please help me. Please, I need your help. I feel so suffocated, God. God, I wanna do my business, go abroad, study there and live there.

God, I hate all.

God, i even wanted to commit succide many times. I even drank a lot of medicines and overdosed. God, please send me my life partner.

Don’t just send him but allow me to tell him everything so that I will feel light and safe. such that when those two boys are coming closer, he will protect me from the. as my guardian. God, send him to me soon before i will die.
I love you, god. Please, and sorry for hurting you sometimes by killing myself and crying at night.
I love you, god.
Please send me my life partner please.
Thank you.