GOODBYE
It’s me again. I’m not even sure how to begin, because every time I try to talk to You, I worry that I’m saying the wrong things or not saying enough. My life has been moving along, but inside I feel lost. You already know why I’m coming to You, and You know the weight I’m carrying.
I feel like I’ve failed as a sister. I can’t change the past, and I can’t control the future. I don’t understand why I keep ruining things, especially with the people I care about most. My sister has every right to feel the way she feels, and because of that, I’ve stepped back. I’m afraid that if I try to repair the relationship, I’ll only hurt her again. I don’t want to cause any more damage, and walking away feels like the only way to stop repeating the same mistakes.
God, I’m asking for Your forgiveness for everything I’ve done. I’m asking for clarity, for healing, and for the strength to accept what I cannot fix. If keeping my distance is what protects her from being hurt again, then I accept that. I don’t want to fail her anymore.
