will listen to it tonight…

Can God be for each and every one of us? Can a God be everywhere, will all of US, with every breath we take, with every action we do, with every step we walk and every thought that passes our mind, can one and only one God be with us?

Each one of us? I’m wildly critical, I’m wildly hopeful, I’m wildly childish, and all My life I’ve been looking for answers. Reading dreams, fears and prayers of all people around the world, leave me with one question:

If we all are the same if we all desire the same peace, how can we have not found a way to be in peace in our existence and coherence in our life.

Why we all struggle? Why we never meet those who found eternal peace and happiness in their life. For every day and for every moment in their life. All I remember I needed to go forward to be in deeper more stable peace foundation, the ground that wouldn?t shake me no matter what will happens.

We are all human yet we hurt each other the most. All the men I met in my life hurt my little girl heart every time I wish to nurture them. No matter how kind, how reserved or patient I’ve been.

I lost one man, the one and only that saw me his angle from the first moment we met, and the last time he looked at me, I knew I never will see that pure soul of him and that is it…

He is gone forever and I am lost in this world, in this world that I fear I will never be loved the way he teached me I deserve, the way every woman needs to be loved.

The biggest fear of my life is to never have love again, the compassionate full of selfishness and truly real love.

The human love and there goes my hopelessness. I need to pray tonight because I feel a week, I have by time healed my broken heart that I knew my God wished me to do, and I am ready for what he have planed for me. But even God shows me all the signs and always give me what I wish for, I feel so lonely.

Right now, this late night in a cold city of Stockholm, trying to fight for getting my results in my final two month of uni studying I feel vulnerable and lonely… I needed to pray and I googled a letter to god, and I find this place, so I will send my prayer to my God:

I need strength, I need focus, I need a heart that doesn’t each, I need to be strong and to see the end of the road. I need to be the human my God intended me to be… Can you send your prayers for me tonight?

Maybe my God will listen to it tonight…