I guess I am lonely and really just need attention. Any kind, even if it is negative. I am sorry if I lie and just want to ask for forgiveness.

I will try to be honest, live a good life and try to do the right thing every day, to improve myself, be tolerant of others and let people live their own lives. I think the best thing to do is not help others, just let them figure things out for themselves.

I realize I really have no one but myself and GOD and just have to accept that. Maybe if I am lucky one day someone will truly forgive me. I really hurt inside, to have no one on the holidays really is a lonely, empty feeling.