I am but a lowly sinner

Forgive me Father for I have sinned.

I come to you in the best way that I can to tell you my sins.

I ask you for forgiveness for the things that I have done since my birth.

I have blamed God for the failures in my life.

I have said that I hated him for what he has allowed to happen to me and my family.

I have turned my back on him and asked him for proof that he exists. I have not been to church regularly for many years.

I wanted to rebel against it. I wanted to change my life to not include going to church because I questioned everything, God included.

I have gone against my mother and father, and their oppression, because I felt what they were doing was wrong, or at least the way they were doing it was wrong.

I am currently married to a man who abused me and took advantage of me and my children.

This is not blessed by the church, but, I have entered many relationships since we parted, yet not legally, and now that I wish to marry the one I believe is truly for me and sent to me from God, I cannot because this man refuses to allow a divorce.

Nevertheless, I have been an adulteress.

I have been tempted to steal and have thought about how I could do it and get away with it, because of desperation of my situation.

I feel that I have done wrong by my kids in many ways, and I feel that I am being punished now because of it.

I have never put them in danger or been truly angry at them, I have never abused them in my opinion but I question if what I have done could be seen as such.

I ask that I am forgiven for my sins, for all the ones that I have put here today and for those that I have forgot or too afraid to speak of.

I ask that God grant me the serenity and peace that comes with the lifting of this massive weight from my shoulders.

I need help to get me through this, please God forgive me.

I am so worn and weary.

I need your help more than ever right now and I feel so alone. My eyes are constantly filled with tears and sadness lingers within my heart.

I am but a lowly sinner, who feels a leper amongst the healthy.

Please God, hear my prayer.