I hope I did the right thing

i got pregnant at the age of 16 and had my son at 17…

ny daughter came along in 2005 and then 3 months later i got pregnant again before i could get my tubes tied..

it wasn?t the same father and high school sweetheart as my first 2 kids. it was a guy who is 17 years older than me.

i was so many financial struggles and being evicted and the best thing I could do was to give him up to a loving family who didn’t have kids.

i almost got an abortion but thank GOD I didn’t have the money,i was just scared and freaking out because i could hardly make it with the 2 I had already..

i miss him so very much til this day,i talk o the family once in a while but i choose not to all the time because it saddens me that they get to hear him laugh and play with MY son..

the day i went to get an abortion,a homeless man was standing outside the clinic and held a sign asking if jesus would kill a child, why would you? and i knew that was a sign from GOD..

I am totally against it and believe i did the right thing… but am I doing the right thing by not telling the father that I didn’t have an abortion and that he is alive, I just put him up for adoption because he has 2 girls himself…

and he had a lot of child support already being taken out and running him dry…

he’s such an awesome guy and i haven’t talked to him in a year and a half…I feel bad..so so bad because always wanted a son..

and he has one and just don’t know it..