I am sorry for everything, I’m sorry for being impatient, I’m sorry for being annoying, I’m sorry for even existing in your life, I guess I’ve contributed to your pain, I didn’t even help, I always insisted that I can help that I won’t give up, and that I won’t leave you, I’m sorry for not keeping my promises.
I never intended to leave but you push me away, and I did respect your decision. I didn’t bother you anymore cause I don’t want to freak you out.
The truth is I got hurt by what you did, but I didn’t hate you for that. I guess I deserved to be eliminated in your life cause I did contribute to your sadness, I did want you to change cause you are so pessimistic and you are slowly killing yourself by consuming drugs and smoking a lot.
You didn’t know that I am hurting when you are hurting yourself and I can’t help or do anything about it.
I care about you, Idon’t want you to commit suicide. I love you, I’m just confused with my feelings before cause it is new to me, I never know what love is until you’ve entered my life even for a short period of time, I didn’t expect it to happen, I didn’t choose to love you, It’s just what I’ve felt. I will always pray for you.
You’re the thought that consumes my mind, and it makes me sad cause I wasn’t able to help you. I just want you to live, enjoy your life, and be happy.
Even if that happiness doesn’t involve me, I shall pray that it will be given to you. I love you. I always will.