Dear God

I’m in darkness right now. Can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m lost in life, feeling unmotivated.. hopeless, and directionless.. my meaningless marriage is the only thing keeping me alive.. I don’t know how long my husband will love me in my current state. I have lost the joy in life.. nothing excites me anymore. I just wanna run away from people and hide in my bed.. sleep my days and nights away.. even when my heart is comforting me, telling me that I’m stronger than this.. trying to do something, trying to fix myself.. I’m feeling so weak, so exhausted of life.. so exhausted dealing with people.. I’m so done.

This is a lazy letter; I’m just writing whatever came to mind.. I’m too tired to think.. I’m tired of reacting.. so tired.. no sleep is helping.. feel like I’m just wasting my time on earth.. when I know I can be so much more..

My life is in limbo. I’m waiting for an answer, for things to happen.. and I know it’s wrong to passively wait.

God help me.. I’m so done.