pleaded for your mercies forgive me.

U were my rock,u were my everything,u gave me all i ever asked of u, yet i have betrayed u,i have wronged you, offended u, iv gone astray…………………………..

I pleaded for your mercies and forgiveness, yet u seem far away…………….u seem not interested in me; you let me realize what I have done; UV made me realize you are the only true friend anyone can have……….

What was I thinking??? I was carried away, even when i knew it was wrong,i continued just 2 please others, even when it felt rape, i was in bondage.

Haven’t u punished me enough??? Y r u distant from me?? I know i made a vow in ur presence, i was tempted, carried away by what I thought was a pleasure but now i am suffering your wrath, even peter has turned against me, I know he is his own, but u have made my punishment so grave.

These past 3years that i turned away from u, I’m been used, abused, humiliated, betrayed, and blackmailed,i knew u should be my only friend, I took it for granted, and turned to a worldly friend who has betrayed me and caused hatred for me from every angle.

I know i deserve all these for going against ur wishes and will but sweet Jesus, haven’t i suffered enough, when and how long will u punish me? For how long will u hide ur mercies from me????? Forgive me, forgive me, sweet Lord, forgive me…………..

I confess going against my vows but ever since I did, iv knew only ill health, heartache, pain and sorrow,i know i have 2 face ur wrath someday but uv being harsh on me,u seem far away and deaf 2 my prayers. Forgive me, Lord, forgive me, forgive me…………………………….

teach me not to seek revenge, teach me to be blind and deaf 2 d world, teach me to know ur d only best friend anyone can ask for, ur d only true friend there is……………………have mercy…………. I’m sorry……………forgive me, listen 2 my cry…………..

forgive me.