confession

I’ve made many mistakes in my life some out of fear, some out of desperation, and others because I didn’t know where else to turn.

When I was 19, I had an abortion. It was a painful decision that has stayed with me. Two years later, at 21, I had a child outside of marriage. I thought I was ready, but I made choices along the way that I now carry with regret.

During my pregnancy, I wanted the baby to be born earlier, out of convenience. I lied to a traditional healer, claiming I was overdue, just to try to speed things up. I spent a lot of money, chasing something I now realize wasn’t in my control. Nothing she promised me worked.

In frustration, I went back again and she shifted the blame to my boyfriend, saying she needed to “look into his life." I agreed, and now I feel deeply guilty for that decision. I worry that if he ever finds out, our relationship might not survive.

God, I ask for Your forgiveness for the lies, for the impatience, for turning to the wrong sources, and for letting fear cloud my judgment.
I want to do better. I want to live with honesty, integrity, and peace.
Please give me the strength to make things right, the wisdom to move forward, and the grace to forgive myself.

I trust that Your mercy is greater than my past.
Help me walk in truth and healing from this day forward.