Betrayal

I slept with my Best friends brother.

I knew it was wrong and there is no excuse but we had been drinking, and although I didn’t initiate it, I didn’t stop it either.

What is worse is that her best friend 5 years ago did the exact same thing and she hasn’t spoken to her since.

The guilt is killing me.

It’s too late to tell her now but I don’t want her to find out any other way by accident.

I cannot sleep, eat, have trouble breathing at times and am stressed out about her finding out now.

There is no excuse and I would to think that she would allow me the opportunity to make my own decisions and mistakes and regret them, but I knew of the context and still it happened.

I am a terrible person, friend and liar.