Life not Lived
Lord, I am sorry for all I do that is not pleasing to you.
I keep on doing this-“repenting”- without changing. I am a sinner and unworthy.
But you are a fantastic god Lord. You bless me and protect my family.
You love me. I confess my sins- that i engage in adultery of the mind, that I lie, that i gossip, that I hate, that I cheat, that I am pride-ful, that I feel so unworthy, that i do not read your word, that i do not speak with you, that I go on throughout my life so un-god living in sin and filth. I am disgusting to myself.
And I say I’m sorry, but I won’t change. I am sorry for that, forgive me.
forgive me for this life not being used for you! Lord, I do not feel close to you anymore.
It’s weird. I feel lonely and without fire.
Spark that flame within me once more. Help me to change. Help me to love you with everything that i am.
Help! Lord, I ask, and I ask. and I do nothing in return.
I am greedy. And though i feel terrible about asking this, lord, i pray you will help me with my health and weight.
Help me with this, please.
I know i am greedy, a loser who is the world’s greatest sinner, masked behind a mask of cleanliness, but please.
Forgive me, and help me, Father.
Help me to live with you and change and change my entire life.
Lord, i pray you to hear this and that you will continue to bless our familly.
Lord, I thank you for your son. You truly love us.
I pray this in Jesus? name, Amen.
