Dear Jesus, thank you for being in my life.

Lord, I thank you for saving me.

As you know, I pray to be friends and get along with Steve and to hear from him.

Lord I never leave the house,I am alone in my thirties and take pills so I sleep all the time and the pain in my heart goes away.

I cry and cry to you, and I know I am my own problem, I long for a loving human touch, a hug, a good friend who is on my side and cares for me, I never realized till you brought Steve into my life for this short time, two months, and that I hadn’t been being strong by not dating or talking to anyone,i had been hiding from fear, fear of being used and hurt and I confess and ask you forgiveness for how I thought I knew it all,

for fighting with everyone, pride, self righteous, seeking approval, trying to prove myself with words while I did nothing, never saying thank you to you, please forgive me, Father,I am asking to surrender to you and to make myself humble before you and I am asking for your help in this life as I do not feel I belong here at all,I fit in with no one, Father Jesus please bless Steve and may the Holy Spirit use our relationship for your glory, you know I long to hear from him and loved the way he talked to me, forgive me Father and may he forgive me for the way I handled things and the mean things I said that I did not mean,

I confess I feel a loser, Lord, you say in the bible a person without love has nothing in Corinthians, I feel that person, I have no life and no interest in anything,I haven’t showered or cleaned my room, and I am a mess, may I know you, May I do your will, may I be able to decipher your voice always, May I know your will, may the Holy Spirit touch my heart and Steves and let us heal and grow together, may I be still and know that you are God if I am disappointing you, forgive me, Father, I feel everyone lives life, and I hide from it and I give this over to you, Lord thy will be done, in Jesus Holy Name

I lift this prayer up to the heavens, Jesus please intercede as you are seated at the right hand of the Father, Holy Spirit the Lord has sent you as the helper,I accept your help and invite you into every aspect of me, my being,my spirit, my heart, my mind, my thoughts, my visions, my soul, my relationships, my finances, my ability to love, friendships, everything even those things I am unaware of, my relationship with my parents and brother, my relationship with myself, Dearest Jesus may I know you are God and be still, thy will be done,I pray this in Jesus Holy Name AMEN AMEN AMEN thank you Father AMEN