I want to change, I want God to forgive me

First I wanna start with last year I got pregnant but the guy wasn’t my boyfriend so I decided to get an abortion, the second I’ve been drinking till lost control, doing cocaine, and having S.

I wanna stop drinking till lose control, I want to change, I want God to forgive me and give me a chance. I’m not a bad girl please, god forgive me and send me a light to my dark life. Patty